Sometimes plans change. Sometimes things don't go the way I expect them to go or want them to go. When this happens I get frustrated. I like to know what is going to happen, when it's going to happen and how it's going to happen, so when it goes different, I get frustrated and upset. However, once I calm down, I begin to realize that even though my plans didn't work the way I expected them to, G-d's plans were being worked out in ways I couldn't imagine.
Last night I really really wanted to go see the sunset out at the lake. I'd even asked a friend with a car to take me to the lake (She likes the sunset too) and she had said she could and would...It appeared a rock solid sunset-watching at the lake plan...until about 6pm. She couldn't bring me anymore. She had a previous committment that she had forgotten about. I put a desperate plea out on facebook for someone to watch the sunset with and I started calling people who I thought might be interested. I found someone. Once again I had a rock-solid sunset-watching at the lake plan...except it got cloudy and there really wasn't much of a sunset. Either that or we were just too late. I was frustrated. All I had wanted to do was watch the sunset.
Looking back, even though the sunset-watching at the lake plan had failed, it was a good night. We drove around semi-randomly and found some places that would be good for future sunset watching at the lake, we went to Wal-Mart and had an adventure. I got some new detail brushes. We talked. We listened to music and sang along. We got to hang out and just be friends. It was good.
I must be a slow learned because last night was not the first time in the last two weeks that G-d has taken my plans and turned them on their head.
New Orleans. My plan was to go and spend the week serving others. I did not plan on spending 4+ hours in the hospital on Monday. Nor did I plan to be so out of it Wednesday that I couldn't even come close to doing my share of the work. G-d however planned that I would learn to lean on other people and develop new friendships. I don't think it would have happened if G-d hadn't slowed me down first. Sometimes it takes a lot to get me to slow down and listen.
This week Wednesday I planned on going to be early and sleeping long. I did not plan on going to Nine. I did not plan on playing badminton at midnight...G-d planned for me to be at Nine and it was amazing. The words spoken and the songs sung were exactly what I needed to hear. And playing badminton at midnight...I like to think G-d planned that for a purpose too, even if it was just to have fun.
G-d's plans are so much bigger than mine. It's easy to write this, but so much harder to live it. I like to know what is going to happen, when it's going to happen, and how it's going to happen. I need to learn to lean more on G-d and trust him more fully..."For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
What we saw instead of the sunset I had intended on seeing....
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